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Friday, 1 May 2009

i love and i love and will love

coming back to my home isn't always a good thing to do cause whenever i am in my safe haven,
I become a lazy pig. only when one is at home, one let go of the burdening stress of life. who doesn't ?
A home... a place where you can rest assured that your parents will always be there for you... and i wonder. How long can i stay this way?
Parents... if they can or allow , they would want to walk with you to the end of your life...? we all know that is impossible...
Transitions.... sometimes you wished you could have freeze a few years so that nothing bothers you for the moment. That's impossible...

Life.. is a what?
i have been sleeping for 2 days... tired from work and so many things to worry about.
At one point i want to rest,
at some point i hope i would get interviews..
at another point i wish my thoughts don't attract the applications which i have sent out...
what exactly i want?

i know it's not just me.
i know there are many things waiting for me outside there... only GOD knows what...
i know i am afraid, sometimes to the point that i don't think i can make it... or i am not good enough...
i know i need the money, i know i can't stay jobless forever...What the F*** that i really want leh?
i know i don't want to be a burden to my family...
and people used to say... sometimes only after a while you will realize that you are bless and lucky to be in that situation.
Will that happen again for me?
sigh~ i really don't know. whyleh?

i want to stay in pj but do what there?
sooner or later my friends will get a job and get on with their life ... so what happen then?damn.
whatever it is...
= ) i just want to tell my friends. i love and i love you guys more than anything. time may erase me from your memories...and i don't blame you because...:-)) ngek ngek ngek ... I will come back and KACAU you people. It's a way to stay in contact right?
XOXOXOXOXOXO Juayn :until that time i will hang around until you guys chased me out whahaha...

See i told you. suddenly i phsycho liow.....siow cha boh. Home. A place you can be anything you want. Seriously people ... update your blogs la. at least something to feed my poor mind la.

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

At least you are home...have you decided what you are going to do prior your graduation?

Pui Kei said...

have i decided? i think so... i have only applied for a certain position... will see what i want when i go for interviews.

Pui Kei said...

have i decided? i think so... i have only applied for a certain position... will see what i want when i go for interviews.

Anonymous said...

Come back to Desa. At least ur sane here.. ngek ngek ngek...

Come back lah...