The quiet morning view of my favourite coffeeshop. i still looked forward to meeting them. just the place is different now.
i am ever so nosy in the life's of my loves.
I called them the loves of my life.
they matter so much to me.
i make mistakes.
i f***** up. well Shits Happened.
Sometimes, i blamed myself for just thinking too much where the answer is right there in front of me.
juayn ... how could you be so blind????
yeah, i made big big mistakes in the past...
so.. i hurt the ones that matter the most to me.
family..
and even ended possible friendships which i could share my ups and down .( I still still regret that!)
you have been the passwords to my computers and fb and email.
which I just realized....
i looked back and wondered how foolish I had been ? i just cannot forgive how i messed up you, me .
i like the damnation part of me who wanted the world to hear me...(cause when I am angry, I don't give a shit!)
tat was in 2010.
SORRY is the word.
SORRY that I hurt you.
SORRY i killed you heart.
cause i can't forgive of my ruthless and mindless actions towards those that matter to me.
i still hold all of you close to my heart.
i am just a person being myself all the time without really thinking how the world judged me.
yes, i can freely give my hearts and soul to anyone i felt needed.
i can't even bring myself to say or see you.
cause i respect this existence that we moved on and we erased each other.
well i always hope you been better and greater.
I may be mean and bitch to you... but i am sensitive. my sense has never failed me.
You are the playful, private and a bastard too.
merry X mas.
love. 2303. 5228.
i can never bring myself to step into that place anymore.
it holds memories and friendship.
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