depression time

i start to think this is a depression time now...
Looking at the news don't make anything better.
it's weird to know many superstar committed suicide because they can't stand the stress of this chaotic life.
lucky are those who continued despite the stress and chaotic of life.

I realized that i was not behaving like myself..
i was not myself.. at times I am not aware what I was doing.
at times i am aware.... things has change so much for me.

now i find it hard to put a smile on my face.
this has never happened to me, and I am glad tat i have friends who explained to me what actually happened.