Raining.
It's been raining since morning and drizzling until now...
I was awake around 8 something in the a.m and when i heard the raindrops on my windows... I can't help but fell back to sleep.
Funny... I have been sleeping for almost 1o hours (10) nowadays...and when my mom called me to wake up this morning. A thought flashed my mind: I so wish i can get a job that allows me to wake at 10 am.... (which I think it would never happened - it was just a thought out of the unconscious me).
As usual - I always start my day doing what needs to be done around home.
Then when I am free on my own - I check out jobstreet .. (routinely everyday and developed some love hate relationship with JOBStreet....)
Why bother to check when I know there is no good news...
I even start to love the idea of staying at home and doing whatever i like.
Helping around home, exercise, cleaning, helping in my dad's office, cooking and baking, walking my dogs everyday , and catching a movie sometimes.(What a life with no ambition.. right?)
When what you get used too becomes a habit, it is very dangerous.
I don't know whether I am not trying hard enough or I am being picky -- or maybe I am
avoiding...
If you say i am too picky- Maybe I am... and God sees this too... and why haven't HE do something about it.
If you say I am not trying hard enough - How come HE never put enough pressures on me so that I will try hard enough..
Or I could just say.... God has a plan for me. What's the plan? (may I know it soon?)
My brother said people will only turn to GOD when they can't find logical reasoning....
2 comments:
i wish i can be in your position to rest for awhile.
Poeple turn to God because we are originally come from God and we need God in all the areas of our lives whether we realise it or not :) Continue to seek God for guidance I am sure He is working in your life.
thanks darling. resting is one thing, doing something with your vacant time is another thing... i miss you~
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