why

why i have to be the one waiting for parents to fetch their kids home?
why i have to close the place by myself?
why i have to wait and walk to my car alone...
why i have to send them home sometimes?

i x understand why parents put their kids in center 24 hrs a week...
i x understand why parents can't put in their time for their children when they have only 1 kid but 1 maid and 2 expensive cars...
i x understand how to teach young kids..
i x understand why parents can hire personal driver and send kid to private school but x hire a personal tutor for the kid
i x understand why am i being so nice to people sometimes
i x understand why i go so far to work...
i x understand why i stay even a few more days in this job

BUT

despite all that. some little achievements..
I teach a stdr 1 girl to use the dictionary..
I like to teach young kids standard 1 to 3..
Teach them few new words...
Becoming friends with them...
Be their listener...

Trying to teach something even I don't know..
*sobs*