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Sunday, 5 July 2009

i want to rant!!

OMG OMG OMG....
"this is hard" "i can't believe that i am doing this" "this is so confusing"

Trials trials and trials...

to stay or not to stay...

I have been working for 5 days now... plus today 6...
I have been asking around as well.
Everyday when I am back from work... I called someone. Why??? Cause I need to let out what I faced in work.Everything.
Seriously... I don't like what i am doing now. On the first day itself... I want to quit the next day.
I have never, never... never almost never encounter this thing in my life until I work now.

The children that i am facing everyday are good.no stress working with them.
It's just the teaching part... i felt i am just the like the personal tutor to each of them. So confusing.

My pay per hour is less than a part time teacher.
I am doing what I am able for the moment. But at the end of the day.I am very confused again.
" Imagine what's it is like to be a ping pong ball attending to each student"

I am sure this is not the experience I am looking for.

But even when I am sure, I can do much better than this...
I can't leave that soon.
am always thinking and thinking!!!

What's wrong with me!

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Don't complain, suck it in! Decide what's the next move.. If you can't leave now, then learn to love it first. Even if it kills you to do that, try... Think of the money you are getting, someone said that to me when I wanted to quit from my previous job! Tho' it may be little, it's still money! Then look forward to your last day, it's better that way.

Don't push yourself too much, okay darling.. Hang in there!

Angeline said...

yeah. hang in there.

and Dear God, i pray that you help juayn through this seemingly difficult time. help her see past the confusion and enjoy every bit of her work :) in Jesus' name, amen! :)