being busy~~

Lately.. i make myself very busy... or just say i make myself occupied.
actually i don't know the reason why i make myself occupied... i am tired of being occupied but at one point i am glad that i am being occupied else i'll start thinking about things that i am not ready to face.

Weird it is ....
i make my commitment to attend cell group...
i make a commitment to go back to my family in Kajang...
i fill in as much of my free time doing things i want and don't want because i know simply that by reaching April i am going to leave PJ...i don't want but i can't help it. answer has been revealed to me. this is a decision that i must make as the eldest child of the family. i can't play play anymore after May~~
i told myself that i need to walk this path all by myself but with the assurance that my friends will still be there for me... and actually i am practicing all these slowly by myself... else it is gonna hurt very much
i am tired of university life... but i always find a reason and energy to continue and sometimes i am rehearsing / revising and my brain compute to me , what i am doing right and what i am doing wrong. (guess i am getting wiser kua)...

and i can foresee that next week will be a busy week for me again. but i know i am enjoying every second of it. it's a learning process for me....
This is what I am going to tell myself.
Rest when you have the time.
Do what is important first - assignments, reading , and revising.
When you are done with 2 - then only you get your rest, then only comes your hangout.
Learn to manage my money well.
Time management as well....

And ... don't take too long to decide on something. once decided... go all out for it. never question of what if... instead think of what i learned so far...