Juayn is back.!!!

It has been for quite a long time since I posted something...
Now I am back.
Well sorry to all my delightful readers (if I have any) while I am not posting anything here, I was actually busy planning lesson plan after lesson plan and updating my teacher's blog.
Yes.. I was doing my teaching practice - It was like hell and sometimes in heaven. I don't really want to talk too much about it... I am just a practical teacher, what else I can say.

Truth is, I learned something from my teaching practice.
On a blank piece of paper... you look for your flair and not your flaw.
If you don't feel good about it, let go. Instead think of how good things will turn out >> and it will be GOOD! I am sure about this.

Also, i REALIZE moral support from friends and family are important.
I was so down after my first observation, I wish i had throw in the towel even before I enroll myself in TESL programme. It was difficult , really difficult. You really need to work hard on everything.. and it's just different. BUT I SURVIVED!

Imagine you have 28 students... now imagine they are your supervisors... and your job is to make each of them enjoy the lesson and make sure you can at least impress them once in a while. (isn't that difficult?)
Now we add in a supervisor who will be there to make sure you had at least a good lesson plan that day. He will watch you until the end of your lesson, and after that , spent about half and hour telling how good and bad you were at your work . ( nobody likes it!!)
But that is just part and package of life.
There's more to it.
But I know I am stronger now.
I changed my perspectives about life..
Maybe I would give teaching another second thought...(MAYBE ONLY)

But before that, for things to change I must change first.

I don't know if I fare well as an English language teacher.
But I hope I taught them at least something about life...
i told them about my real life, my family, my background...
I have nothing to lie about..
My life isn't a bed of roses.. (you know sometimes people fail to look at how you were before before you are now.)

Also I would like to apologize to my friends for not attending their convocations.Thanks for all the invitations >....< but I was so caught up with my teaching practice , so stress, it was not a good experience for me. It not i don want to share your happiness, but it wouldn't be nice if I don't smile sincerely for you . That is not fair to you and me..