money. i need you

sigh.
money oh money...
can u tell me why i am working for you and not the other way around.
money oh money.. why must you make my life so miserable?
why do i have to choose between you and doing something that i fancy... can you please tell me.??
currently i am working to pay for my trip in Sabah...(which i think is not a very good plan trip because of the money that i need to spend)
i don't know if this is a right decision also ...
i haven't start sending my resume to companies...i mean what's the rush? i am still going to sabah and come back to Kuala Lumpur. even if i start sending now, i don't think i am quite ready for the working world. cause... study study then suddenly working. and working for money. i want to enjoy for a while first before rushing to work lor. of course i know i need the money. just i malas to ACTION only FTM. >for the moment< can i?
i just want to do what i feel like it.
also sorry to studying...just damn lazy to continue studying...
and also revising for exam.
guess i better bring my spanish book to revise for my exam. work is really boring and no fun when in fact you know that earning 3.50 per hour just because you need to secure a job urgently to pay for your own trip and keeping this secret from your parents because you know very well, they are going to F*** when you tell them the amount of money you are going to spend there.

Just one thing to say: GOD BLESS ME! AMEN.