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why when i come home...

i feel peaceful instead of worried?
i feel relax instead of uptight?
i feel calm instead of stress?
i feel better than worst?
i feel i can do it than i don't think i can do it?
i feel restful instead of restless?
why oh why?

my home, my nest, my protection.
lie in between these walls of my room...
i felt i belong here in this calm solitude.
i like it here, i want to be in this room forever shut away from the distractions and temptations from outside
a lone ranger in my own world ...hmmm isn't a bad idea after all...
time always seems to be longer when i'm here though 24 hrs are universal..
a room that lets me free and be what i want, it is always pleasurable to be in here.

here: i can forget what bothers me (for a while), and let alone swimming around my endless thoughts of what if, what could, what's tomorrow, what's next and how i.....? i love this too much to give it up... only wonder whether i can hold on to this comforting loneliness....

good night world.